Head-Heart fight

It is funny, most of the times I think that I'm head but I realise now, that I'm head and heart. I wish I could have the answer, I really wish I could know it, but I don't know it and I'm trying but every time that I think about it my heart splits in two or more... and I can not find the answer 'cos I can not think and I want to cry but I can not, my head does not allow me to cry and my heart does not allow me to think. I can only say that I will try again and again and again, till I find the answer.